Thursday, July 10, 2008

No fear! Only faith!

Fear has been getting the better of me lately. So has worrying. It's only been a little over 7 days since we found out that we are expecting again. Böna has a scheduled arrival date of March 8th - right after my birthday on the 6th and Flicka's on the 9th. Yet, the next 10 months are stretching out in front of me like a kid waiting for Christmas or a year-away Disney vacation.

So, with the lack of something better to do and with my trademark impatience, I've begun to worry. So, being deliberately thankful today is more important than ever.

I've worried about losing this pregnancy - like the one I lost before. In 2002, this is the week in the pregnancy that the baby stopped growing and we didn't find out until 3 weeks later...and I'm scheduled for my first OB appt in 3 weeks.

Mark 4:40 But He said to them, "Why are you so fearful? How [is it] that you have no faith?"

So, I am thankful that all my life is in His hands. I will seek Him and lean on my faith to enjoy this last pregnancy and not fritter it away worrying. And, let His will be done for whatever does happen He is with me. Thank you, Lord, for walking through this with me.

Then, I've wasted too much time being overly anxious about all the things that could go wrong and failing to remember how many things have gone right, including the simple miracle I'm pregnant at all. I figure Mary had few doubts that the Lord's birth would come to pass. *wink*

But, worries about something happening to me (I lost a college friend who laid down for a nap during her second trimester and never woke up) or something being wrong with the baby (I am 40 and all and my odds of there being a genetic problem increase each year) have spent too much time interfering with the simple joy of being pregnant again.

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

So, I will say thank you Lord for Your spirit in me, its power, and Your love. Help to keep me focused on that and not the "things of this world" and to remember to use that sound and thankful mind to look forward boldly instead of backwards in fear. NOTHING is impossible with God.

Finally, where are we going to put Böna? How are we gonna pay for the hospital bills? The diapers? Ugh, more diapers! LOL An additional car seat? What will this change do to Flicka and Pojke? What will it mean that come March DaHubby and I will be outnumbered? LOL

Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

So, I say...thank you for all the provision You've provided for us. Help me to step out in faith, proclaim this miracle to all, have faith Your hand is in this process, and this pregnancy be to Your glory.

For more deliberate thankfulness, check out Pam's place and the ladies of Thankful Thursday.


Denise said...

Congrats my sweet friend. I am asking God to take away your worries, and replace them with His sweet peace, and love.

Karen said...

I missed your announcement last week, so let me say it now - CONGRATULATIONS! How exciting!!

I will pray for you that you will be able to rest in God's peace and enjoy this exciting time instead of being overwhelmed by worry.

Anonymous said...

Oh Beth, don't worry, just trust. I pray for peace for you, as He's given me.
Lady of value

GiBee said...

Beth -- I know of all the worries and fears you speak of... they can feel very real, and they can weigh heavily on your heart and mind if allowed to do so.

I can see that you're already praying up a hedge of protection around yourself to guard you from these fears!

Remember: Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid or worried because of past problems, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. No matter what!!! (Deuteronomy 31:6)


Renee said...

I'm praying for your peace over this pregnancy. I thought about you a few times this week after reading your announcemnent last week...It seems you know what to do - just trust God :) Have a blessed weekend.

Laurie Ann said...

Congratulations! I'm praying things will be perfect for you. Happy Thankful Thursday!

Lisa@BlessedwithGrace said...

Congrats on the pregnancy. It is understandable to have fears and anxiety. I am glad that you put your trust and faith in the Lord. He will be with you.

southmsmomof4 said...

Congrats on your pregnancy! I can understand your fears but (of course there is a but in there),When all these things come at you, remember the scripture Philippians 4:8
"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." Be blessed and keep trusting Him. God makes a way where there seems to be no way!

Pam said...


I felt the exact same way with a boatload of worries similar to yours . . . eight years ago when I found out JD was on his way.

May Isaiah 41:10 bring you comfort in those moments when fear threatens to overwhelm you. Read the surrounding verses for even more about not being afraid. God is great with exhorting us not to fear.

I will keep you in my prayers, dear friend, and hold you before the throne as you await a good report in three weeks.

Hugs to you, dear one!

Thursday's Child said...

Don't happy! LOL I just couldn't pass that one up. ;)

Don't worry about being outnumbered. DH and I are and we've survived. Actually for the first two years I was outnumbered by myself and so far they're no worse for wear.

Your b-day is on the 6th? That's the twins' b-day. You're in good company.

Anonymous said...

The Lord will not give you more than you can handle. He knows that you are a loving and caring soul. He has plans for you! (and the family)